don't be afraid to change

“Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. 

Don't resist them; that only creates sorrow. 

Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like.” 
― Lao Tzu

Change doesn't always come easy, to anyone. Change happens because there are things that you need to learn. We lay down the options. One seems easier than the there. One seems more complicated than the other. One looks more fun than the other. One seems to take longer then the others. One seem to be more rewarding than the other... See through how they look like. Are you scared to try something new because you are afraid of failing? afraid of how other people will see you? afraid of getting out of comfort zone? afraid of uncertain future? 

Stability gives you comfort. And comfort brings you contentment. Contentment can deceive you, make you feel like you are happy. But being content and being happy are two different thing. You cannot settle on being content. Belonging can makes you feel comfortable. It makes you feel like you are a part of something. But are you truly being yourself? are you pretending to be someone else to belong there? Are you afraid of being alone? You can't hide yourself to belong somewhere. You don't have to belong anywhere. You are you. 

I started thinking a lot about my life lately. I know that thinking too much won't give me any answers or show me the path. But it feels like that I have to think, lay down the options, and plan logically. Yes, even if I were to plan my "PERFECT" life, it won't happen as I plan anyway. God has a better plan. It's hard to keep your faith strong, when you are not seeing what's happening. When we're young, we used to dream how our life would be. Have a perfect job, get a perfect car, buy a perfect house, get marry, have kids, live happily ever after. And looking at my life right now and it's nothing like I imagined. "It wasn't suppose to be like this". I didn't imagine my life to be like this. Maybe I rebelled. Maybe my plan was wrong. Maybe I didn't know anything to begin with. Maybe I just made a wrong turn or two, or hundreds.... I feel a lot more immature, irresponsible, and incapable than I dreamed I'd be. Am I happy? most of the time. Am I doing what I want to do? most of the time. do I love myself? more than before. Do I know what I want in my life? not all the time.... But there are so many things I learned, because I took this path. There are many people I met because I took this path. These were the path I needed to take to be who God wants me to be. There are still a lot more for me to learn. Things change, I change, the world changes. Just because one door closes on you, it doesn't mean that you wasted your time. It means that GOD wants you to open the other door. 

"Don't be afraid to change. You may lose something good, but you may gain something better."

-unknown

Don't be afraid to change. It's there because it'll bring you something better. Because there's something for you to learn. Because you are meant to make that change. 

Love, Hope, Faith...