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“Rather than turning the page, it's much easier to just throw the book away.” 
― Anthony Liccione -

This is blog #222. Since my birthday is 2/22, it feels kinda special. so let's celebrate our life! More than before. Everyday is a celebration!!!! What do you celebrate?! That's up to you! 

Every time I go back to my hometown, it gives me a whole new perspective towards life and for a while, it gives me headaches... This time around wasn't an exception. Of course, now that I'm older, time goes by a lot faster than I remember. And there're only about 50 days left till 2014 is over. How is that even possible?! Seriously. I just can't believe how fast it has been. 

Every person is different. Every life is different. And even though we are aware of that fact, we tend to compare ourself to others, don't we? We look at others, what type of job they are doing, are they married, do they have kids, do they have a house, how much money do they make... the list goes on and on. But who decides what values more than what? Is there any definition to any of this? Do we really value our happiness based on any of this? The only person who can decide, or even have a saying, in your life is YOU. I got to see my old friends. Most of them are married. Some of them have kids. Do they have a career? Yes. Most of them are actually working the job they've wanted since I've known them. And one of my friend told me something, I didn't expect to hear from ANYONE in Japan. Even though Japan is considered as a developed country, a lot of people are still old school and stuck only on what they know. But she said, "I love my job so much. There are days it gives me headache, but I know that's a challenge that helps me grow. And what I can learn from it, makes me stronger. If by any chance, I don't wake up tomorrow morning, I have no regret whatsoever".  Can you say the same about your life? Or do you know anyone who can say the same? And that's how we should live. It's not that she has an easy life. She's super busy with her work. She still manages to take more classes to build her knowledge and have a dinner party to spend time with people she loves. She knows what she wants and what only she can do. She told me about the plan for the future and I have a complete faith that she'll get there and even farther. Because of her faith and her action. She also told me this. "I don't decline cases because I don't know that area. I might say I don't know it now, but I will do my research and study if that's what need to be done. All I have to do is to study. Honesty and passion can take you a lot more than you can imagine." 

Talking to her actually got me confused, to be honest. I know that what she does is not what I want to do. But seeing how she is, knowing exactly what she wants to do, makes me doubt if I really know what exactly it is that I want to do for my life. People talk about "find something that you're passionate first." There are many things that I'm interested in and I love doing it. But is that my passion or is that my hobby?! What is my calling?! What is it that God wants me to do?! How would I know what is calling and what is hobby? How would I see the sign if I don't know what I'm looking for?! It's never-ending, isn't it?! I know. Personally, brainstorming is not the exact way to find that out. It seems like an eliminating my possibilities. Then again, what would I know. I realized that my vision was so limited. I had so many options and possibilities that I didn't know or see. This isn't something that I can come up with overnight. I know that I want to make people smile. I want others to see that the this life isn't just a full of crap, that it's still worth living. I want to create the place that people can be people, a person can be a person, you can be you without worrying about anything. I don't know what I'll end up doing. I don't know what's gonna happen tomorrow or if I'd even wake up. But I want to live like that. I want to live my life the fullest. And you can to. Let's make that decision today and live our life the fullest. Without even knowing what we want, we still should be able to live our life the fullest. Love ourself. Be kind to other people. Be happy. Eat right. Do exercise. Smile often. Laugh a lot. Don't be afraid to be who you are. Hug more often. Be honest to what you are feeling. Take off the mask that you've been wearing. Now is a good time to start a new chapter, or better yet, to start a new book. What happened in the past already happened. You can't go back and change that. You can change your attitude. You can choose to learn from the past. If you made a mistake, learn from that mistake. If you loved doing something when you were kids, remember the feeling and start feeling that way again. 

Let's choose to make the best of what we have. Today is a new start. Tomorrow is another start. Close that book and open a new one. 

Love, Hope, Faith....