Tell your story

“If you do not tell the truth about yourself you cannot tell it about other people.” 

― Virginia Woolf

Last night I had an honor to attend the world premiere of The I'M POSSIBLE book launch. A book written by 50 authors, 50 different stories. It was an incredible opportunity to hear some of the authors telling their own stories. Those were very powerful stories. It shook me up deeply. Those are not easy stories to tell. It takes enormous amount of courage. It takes courage to admit that the event has happened. It takes a courage to say I am a surviver not a victim. It takes a courage to stand up from where you are. It takes even more courage to share that story to others. And for that I have such respect for all these authors. They were all different age, gender, and background, they were all different people. And you can only tell your story from your own perspective. Even when you tell someone else's story to others, it'll still have little bit of your perspective, only because you heard it from someone else and interpreted in your own way. So if all our stories are different to begin with, why are we not telling our stories? The stories included in this book were incredibly powerful, suicide, rape, having diagnosed as MS, losing parent as a young child.... These are not somethings to be taken lightly.  I can't even imagine what they've been through. It's something you won't understand unless you went through it yourself. All you can do is listen to their stories. Let them affect you. Let them talk to you. Let yourself to listen, truly listen.

I think we hold back ourself from telling our TRUE stories. We may tell some stories here and there, but not maybe the whole story. Are you ashamed that what may think of you? Are you worried that the story will change other people's opinion about you? Are you afraid that they will hate you? I am afraid that telling the story is admitting what's going on. By telling the whole story and what I'm feeling now, I become very vulnerable. I don't think I could handle that. Because the moment you start telling others what's actually going on and what I'm actually feeling, I am showing them my true self. What if they don't like me any more? What if they would judge me in a wrong way? What if they would talk behind my back? What if they would laugh at me? What if, what if, what if..... the thoughts and the ideas of what ifs can traumatize me. I write things a lot. what I'm feeling, what's going on... I used to even filter my writing too. But not, I don't hold back as much when I'm writing. When I'm sad, I write I'm sad. When I feel weak, that's what I'd write. But speaking out loud? that's a different story. I still deflect. I stop eye contact and my eyes wonder around. My voice becomes shaky and throat becomes dry. Most of the time what comes out from my mouth doesn't even make sense or have no structures what so ever. And I started working on that last year. Your words have power. Your eyes have power. Marianne Williamson said

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our Light, not our Darkness, that most frightens us.

Your words have power. Your eyes have power. Your voice has power. You have a power. And you shouldn't be afraid of that power that's planted in you before you were even born. Having power doesn't make you bad. I think it's all the misunderstanding has been brainwashed into our thoughts. Power is bad. Being rich is bad. Those what we hold won't make us bad. It's how we use it. We have a power that we can use it for the love and light. When your intention is filled with love and light, no matter how much or how little power you have, it all has a huge impact. Some others might recognize right away. Some won't be noticed at all. But when you use your power for love, serve others with that love, and do what you were created to do, the rest will just fall into place. Your power is there for you to use, not to abuse.

Admitting your story is scary. Because that means you're taking responsibility for your life. That's a great news! We all have to take responsibility for out life. You can't blame things on others. I wasn't born with this. I wasn't given this and that. I wasn't fortunate like you were. I just don't have anybody who can help me. ..... it's so much easier to just blame it on others or things that's not you. The fact doesn't change, what changes is your reality. The story you tell yourself will shift. Then your perspective changes. Then your reaction changes. Then you change. Your story is valuable. We all need to honor and respect other people's stories. We can all learn from it. Tell your own story. Not what you think how it should be. Not how you want it to be. Tell as you know, as authentic as it can. Start telling yourself this "I-AM-POSSIBLE". Your story might change someone else's life.

love, hope, faith