You don't have to be alone

I just watched this news on CNN and it made me really sad.  Japan's worst day for teen suicide. Because I understand where she comes from. I wasn't bullied physically. But mentally and emotionally, there were many days that I didn't know why or how I needed to keep going. And it was hard. It made me feel that I was worthless. I wasn't good enough. I wasn't beautiful. I wasn't loved. (well, except for my family). And it took me long time to start believing in people again. I am not saying that I had a horrible childhood. I was blessed to have my family who loved me so deeply. I was blessed to have found love for music and books. I was blessed to have met a friend who saw good in me. But I struggled in my own way. 

my mother taught me to find good in people, even in those who you don't get along. She also told me that whenever I see people doing something I don't agree or I don't like, just be glad that I am not that person. Feel sorry for that person. Those were literally the greatest lessons I ever learned from her. 

It's hard to tell people or talk to people when they are hurt, struggling, even lost hope. If you're a teenager, your school life is pretty much your world. So, what can you do when the whole world is collapsing on top of you? You really can't. But you are not alone. You are always good enough. You are always beautiful. You are always worth it. And you will find strength in you. You might not believe me now and it's fine. But don't give up on your life or yourself just yet. please don't take your life. 

“ You Chose 

You chose.

You chose.

You chose.

You chose to give away your love.

You chose to have a broken heart. 

You chose to give up. 

You chose to hang on.

You chose to react.

You chose to feel insecure.

You chose to feel anger.

You chose to fight back.

You chose to have hope.

You chose to be naïve. 

You chose to ignore your intuition.

You chose to ignore advice.

You chose to look the other way. 

You chose to not listen. 

You chose to be stuck in the past. 

You chose your perspective. 

You chose to blame. 

You chose to be right.

You chose your pride. 

You chose your games.

You chose your ego.

You chose your paranoia. 

You chose to compete.

You chose your enemies.

You chose your consequences.

You chose.

You chose.

You chose.

You chose.

However, you are not alone. Generations of women in your family have chosen. Women around the world have chosen. We all have chosen at one time in our lives. We stand behind you now screaming: 

Choose to let go.

Choose dignity. 

Choose to forgive yourself.

Choose to forgive others.

Choose to see your value.

Choose to show the world you’re not a victim.

Choose to make us proud.” 

― Shannon L. Alder