getting lost is a part of the journey

“Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful. It's the transition that's troublesome.”
― Isaac Asimov

Life happens and people change. Change is inevitable. We all know that as a piece of information. Can you accept the change and keep going? That's a different story, isn't it?

I feel like my life is turning and spinning all over the place lately. Things are taking me towards the direction that I wasn't expecting. Not completely off the direction. It might be the extension of it, but more in a bigger and broader sense. Trying to live in the "dream" or the "image". It feels like that is about to end. Maybe I am making it sounds a lot more dramatic than it is. It might not be that drastic. But I do feel the shift around me. The people I meet. The information I get. The curiosity that I get. Those are all different now. And yet, as the Universe shifts, there's a part of me that's afraid and scared to jump into the unknown. Maybe I am too late for the game. I have no knowledge in this genre. I have absolutely not experience in this. Am I just escaping from the reality and trying to convince myself that this is the new path? What am I suppose to do?

Luckily, I have been a type of person who has interests in tons and tons of things. It's not all in the same area. My attention was scattered all over the place, going one place to another. Trying this, trying that. I have a phase with this thing, and next weeks with that thing. What is my true passion? What is my true calling? I kept asking God that question over and over. It would have been nice if this happened when I was a teenager, but that's not the case. Life keeps happening. And I am fully aware the fact that I have taken a huge detour throughout my whole life. Yes, I am also aware that if it wasn't for that detour I wouldn't have met the people around me or known what I know now. And yes, I cannot keep talking about how things should have been or could have been.  So what am I suppose to do now? Do I just "wing it" and see what's gonna happen? 

Again, life happens for us. And just like our body knows better than we think, the life knows what we need and what role we need to play in this Universe. I recently read the book "It's not ROCKET SCIENCE" by Mary Spio. It's exactly what I believe in. We all need to fulfill our potential and by being authentically who we are, we serve our purpose. We are all created in unique way specifically for that purpose. And it's not about you. It's bigger than that. Your purpose and your role in this Universe that's bigger than your ego or your little ideas of success or your money or possession. It's about what we can give, what we can learn, what we can teach to the next generation and to the rest of the world. I don't even know what I want for my lunch, how am I suppose to know what the Universe wants me to do? You might ask. Yes, I ask that question everyday and still don't know the answer. I love people and I want to bring more smile and joy to the people. That's all I know. In what form? I don't know. I mumble and rumble all these things and 99% of the time I am telling it to myself. I need to remind myself that I am here for a bigger purpose. I need to remind myself that what I'm experiencing right now is for the better. And I do feel that the things are changing. I feel the urge that I need to be true to who I am, and that's hard accepting who I am. I have lots of flaws and made tons of mistakes. I might say things that's completely opposite to what I said before. And yet, that's still a part of the journey. You have to be you. Don't be afraid that some people won't accept you or not like you. There'll always be someone who's not for you. And that's ok. If you are pleasing others, you won't see your true self. Be you. Be the best version of you. Be authentic you. Getting lost is a part of your journey. 

Love, Hope, Faith