God is love and love is GOD.

Yes, God is love and love is real. When I decided to move to U.S., the advice I got was not to talk about politics and religion. And here I am, talking about GOD. I do think religion could bring some conflicts, or even wars. It's very sad bad true. But I'm not talking about religion. I am talking about God. Knowing that since I started writing this blog, I was avoiding to mention God. instead, I used "the Universe" and "the Higher Spirits". But I do believe in GOD. I believe that He wants what's best for us. He loves us for who you are. He blesses us. He is watching over us. Yes, not everything is life is perfect. But, that's because your focus is in a wrong place. You're not seeing what you already have, how far you've come, how much more you can go.

When I initially started this blog, I simply wanted to spread the idea of positive life style, keep getting inspired and knowing that you are beautiful inside and out. I wanted to share those ideas, and more. Whenever I saw amazing videos or read some inspiring articles, I tried to share and add my opinions. It's been a lot of struggle to take this path. There was a lot of lessons, some were very painful, some were incredibly beautiful. As time goes by, my interests also shifted. The whole idea of spiritualism and mindfulness and all that, yes, I do like the topic they talk about. I love to meditate. I love to be aware of the situation and things that's bigger than me. I love the idea that we're spiritual being experiencing physical life. Then I decided my path. I accepted Jesus as my savior. HE saved me. But lately, I've realized that I didn't surrender completely in his hand. There were parts of me still thinking that I'm not worthy enough. I'm not good enough. I'm not beautiful enough, or talented enough, or I'm not the right nationality, or I'm not tall enough, I made too many mistakes........ All the insecurity and fear, comparison to the others, compromising to others... not knowing my worth was taking me to a whole new place, especially since my move to NYC, I was kinda forced to realize the fact that I didn't really know who I am. I mean, how is it even possible to inspire people when I don't even know who I am, right?! I had an idea of who I wanted to be. So that idea of me was trying to do things. But, God has a bigger plan for me. I realized that. If this sounds like your idea of crazy-Christian and that scares you, by all means, you are more than welcome not to read this.

I am reading Joel Osteen's "Break Out". It made me laugh...

God knows how to take something ordinary and make it extraordinary. 

Get in agreement with Him and be confident that you have exactly what you need. Declare

"I am anointed. 

I am equipped. 

I am empowered. 

I am right size. 

I am right nationality. 

I know the right people. 

I have the right amount of talent."

Yup. Exactly what I needed to hear. He always know what I need to hear. I am not afraid of what people might think of me or ashamed to talk about what I believe. I am what I am and I believe in what I believe. That doesn't mean, I'm not gonna change. I will change and what I believe in this world might change. After all we're all hear to grow and excel. But I will always love GOD. Because what I am is because of HIM. The other day, God told me that I need to truly surrender and let him do his work, that my ego is/was still too big. Let that go. When I worship, tears came out. That wasn't because I felt his presence(not that I didn't). It was because He wanted me to accept him and surrender even more. He was crying out to reach my heart blocked by the thick wall. 

My desire to inspire people hasn't change. If anything, it became stronger. I want to inspire people. And I know that to inspire people is not something you can just do. Because it's not up to you to do that. It's not in your hand. You can only do what you do best and let God do his work. When you are truly authentic to who He created you to be, when you are doing what you are meant to do with all your heart, that's when other people will be touched by GOD, through you. It's not your work. HE's inspiring those people through you. You are HIS vessel. Let Him do his work. Be truly who you are. Don't be afraid to say what He want you to say. You don't have to worry about what other people might say or think. Because it doesn't matter. God's work is greater than anything that they might say or think. You don't know who you are?! Neither do I. I don't know what I am doing. I don't know what I'm even suppose to do. But this, I'm writing it like non stop. Because I just want to spread HIS amazing love. I feel like I'm suppose to write this down. There are still a lot to be done in me. I'm not even close to knowing who I am or what I am. I was so good at pretending that everything is ok, and not talking to anyone about my problem, (no, not even to GOD for a long time). It's gonna take a long time. And I'm excited to get to know me now. God is amazing and I'm not. But He can do amazing work through me. And that's more than enough. I am still going to write what I want to share with you, and what I want you to know. And if you want to take a journey with me, I'd really appreciate that. So thank you. I am grateful that you're in my life. I am grateful to know that GOD is my life. I am grateful to know that HE is Love. Love is everywhere. God is everywhere. that, my idea will not change. Love is everywhere. Love is the source of all energy. I love you. 

Love,