My religion is LOVE.

 "Everything in Nature is a wonderful miracle. 

Isn't the little bird flying through the vast sky a miracle?" 

—Amma 

I went to see AMMA yesterday. It was my first time. It shook me to core. Right after she gave me her blessing, I felt like I just got hit by a truck. Her energy was enormous. Overwhelming amount of love flood through my whole entire body. No words can explain what it was like. If you've ever met her, you would know what I am talking about.

It felt like I was going down the rabbit hole. Is that what Alice felt like? It was powerful beyond measure. Before I approached her, they asked me what my mother tongue was. Although I've been working on accepting my Japanese side, I caught myself being hesitant to say "Japanese". I almost said "English". My ego was saying "Can't you hear me talking to you in English? I have almost no accent". After I told them it was Japanese, they told Amma that I am Japanese, that my mother tongue that is. She gave me a big hug and whispered something to my ear repeatedly. I couldn't really make out what she was saying. It didn't matter anyways. It must have been a matter of 10 seconds or so, but it seemed like an eternity. I felt my grandmother's presence who passed away when I was 15 years old. She kept telling me that "It's going to be ok." After I stood up, a tear fell out of my eye, then one, then another... it just kept pouring out from my eyes and I didn't know how to control myself. And somehow I knew that I didn't have to. I felt insignificant, so small, so tiny, compare to her enormous presence, I was nothing. I felt powerless. And yet, I felt unlimited possibility, that what I thought my "grand master plan" is so tiny compare to what I am actually capable of. I felt my ego being shrunk up. Is this what love feels like? I was confused, overwhelmed, shaken up. I still can't explain what it was. But it felt like, I was experiencing the duality of the world, the expansiveness of the world, and possibility and the end of the world. How can a person do this? How can this small woman have such a strong power and love? How is any of this possible? So I kept crying. I didn't care.

We are all mere collection of tiny matter. The difference between me and you is just the combination. We were made out of the same thing. So that's why we are one. Because what makes us who we are is the same energy. What we experience, what we take in, those constantly affects the patterns of the combination. That causes different vibrational frequency and balances. We are all the same. If we can just tune into that oneness and love more, then we get to understand each other more. Because our vibration start match. It's fascinating isn't it? We spend so much time building up walls that's preventing us from becoming who we are, who we truly are. So we cannot have the same frequency as the others. It might not be possible to have the exact same frequency as others. It doesn't matter. The bottom line is that we are all the same. We are all here to be who we are, just the way we are. We have to love ourselves. Please love yourself. You are who you are for a reason. Your gift is your gift so that you can fulfill your part, so that you can raise that vibration with those who need you.You are beautiful inside out. Please do know that.

The brief meeting with Amma made me want to become better. She made me want to expand more, serve more and be me more. Imagine how many lives we can change if we all just realize that all of us can have that much of love at any time. And that's actually how it should be. I cannot wait to see the day that'll come true. To see the day when people share love, respect each other with love, have compassion and empathy, and help each other. Our possibilities are infinite. There are so much more than what we know. Don't limit yourself because of your past. Don't hesitate to get out of your comfort zone. Don't be afraid of your own greatness. Don't be afraid to reach out to others and seek for help. Don't be afraid to be you. Because you are powerful. you are beautiful. You are light. You don't have to ignore the shadow side. Embrace that shadow side so that you can emanate more light. Embrace that "Ugly" part so that you can be more compassionate. Be you. Share love. That's all it is.

I love you all, more than you can imagine.

Love, Hope, Faith