“Getting lost is just another way of saying 'going exploring.”
― Justina Chen, North of Beautiful
We all get lost. Right? It's just impossible to stay on course, or stay positive, or smile all the time. It's just impossible. We are not machine. We are all human beings. We feel. We experience. We get lost all the time. What we all have in common is that we start our journey when we were born, and we end that journey when we die. That's what we have in common. No matter who you are or where you are in your life, everything in between is their journey. Everybody takes different path and different approach. Not a single person can have an exact same experience as someone else's. And throughout that journey, we have a purpose to fulfill. And to serve and to share those gifts that's given to you. Especially nowadays, people talk all the time about being present, being mindful, being who you truly are, serving your purpose... They all talk about the same thing. So why is it that we are not doing it? What keeps us away from doing so?
I think it's because we want to live our life according to our plans. We want to be in control. We want to feel like we are orchestrating our lives. We wish that our "master plan" works perfectly. So when it go off the course, we get lost. We lose our control, which we didn't have to begin with. We like to think that we are smarter than others. We want others to look up to you. We want recognition. We want fame. We want more power and financial control..... we want, we want, we want..... And that might be exactly where things went off course. I believe that we are a tiny part of this Universe and the galaxy which is bigger than we can possibly imagine. I think we are the tiny particle on this earth. I think our ego is bigger than it should be. I believe that this life is about serving, not about gaining. Our gifts are there for us to share. They say that what you want is not important, why you do it and what you do it for, that's what's important.
People talk about their vision and their calling... Do you know what your calling is?
The other day, I was watching the video where Oprah and Elizabeth Gilbert talked about people's "Quest". She said "Every quests start from QUESTION(QUEST-tion). What am I here for?". Have you asked yourself that question lately? Or have you ever asked yourself that question? I thought I knew what my calling was, to inspire. Performing has been a choice of my way till now. And starting of this year, I started to take another path as well. To share my ideas and thoughts. "Smile Everyday" Challenge, and blogging, to share the thoughts. Up until right now, my life has been repetition. It was about surviving and not about living. I was doing "whatever I can", to make my life better. My day job, which pays me enough to live comfortably, became my priority. I knew it and I pretend not to see that. I take classes so that I can feel like at least I'm doing something..... I saw that the whole vicious cycle was starting to come out again. And I refuse to let that happen. Why don't I have that courage to move forward? Why don't I take that action? Why don't I do what I say I do? Why don't I? So, I asked again. "God, why am I here for?" Mainly because of fear of failing, fear of not making it, whatever the means, fear of what others might think of me, and lack of confidence and faith... It's funny, because by not doing whatever it is that I should be doing, I am not making any progress anyways. How can I expect different result doing the same thing? people call that definition of insanity. And the fact is that it is TRUE! And I want to change that. I hate the feeling of being stuck, not going anywhere, not being creative or passionate. I want to live and thrive. I want to THRIVE and we all should. God didn't put us on this earth to just suffer and merely survive. We are here to THRIVE. at least I'd love to think that's what HE wants. I have to stop hesitating. I have to trust and take action. And it takes guts and effort that I haven't done before. And if you want to join me on this journey, let's do it. Let's thrive. Let's enjoy this life and move it to the next level. I haven't heard His answer yet. But I feel like He's waiting for me to take an action. And when I do that He'll tell me the answer. So, let's start this journey by asking the question. "WHAT AM I HERE FOR?" again. "Every quests start from the Question".
love, hope, faith
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