Live as if there's no tomorrow.

“What do we live for, if it is not to make life less difficult for each other?” 
― George Eliot

Yesterday was my friend's birthday. She is beautiful inside out and is one of the big reason why I was able to pack up things and move to NYC. She loves and lives her life the fullest. She knows the importance of the life, how not to take everyday for granted. At the end of her birthday dinner, "I want to say something to everyone. I don't know when I'd get to do this gain." she said, and went around and told each of us how grateful she is for our friendship. Once, we're at the coffee shop catching up, it was one of those days that I wasn't feeling great about myself. So, she prayed for me. She held my hand and prayed for me. And I couldn't stop crying that day. Her love for life and God is beautiful. Her passion for her dreams and goals inspires me. 

And this morning, for the first time, I went to Yoga 7am. I've never done that. On the way to the studio, on the corner of the block, there were a group of police, police cars and ambulance. I wish I didn't look over to see what was going on. But they were surrounding the body on the ground covered in the white clothe. Rest in peace. I prayed. And that kept me thinking about my friend and how she said, nothing is guaranteed, we can't take anything for granted. We have to take each and everyday as a gift and cherish each moment. So, when I went into the practice, my mind was calm. My breath was there. I was grounded. How often do we pay attention to our breath if it weren't for yoga class or meditation? How often do we sit in silent without your phone? How often do we actually look people in the eyes? How often do we pay attention to what others have to say? How often do we check in with ourselves? "Right here, Right now". The teacher repeated that throughout the class. And all of the sudden, the thought that came out to my head was "I'm sorry". It wasn't for other people. It wasn't for anything else. It was for myself. It's better than before now, but before I wasn't kind to myself. Yes, being kind and being spoiled are different. But I wasn't kind to myself. I didn't eat. I didn't take care of my mental health. I hated myself. And I don't think I've ever said "I'm sorry" for that. I don't even know why this was happening. But I knew that I needed it. As Anthony Meindl says, at the end of the day, we all want to convey these 4 elements. 

I love you.

I'm sorry.

Please forgive me.

Thank you

My life has shifted tremendously last few months. I have a completely different motivation and mindset that drives me forward. And I am grateful to be alive. I am grateful for each and everyone of you in my life and who will going to be in my life. Don't be lazy to tell people how grateful you are for them. Let them know how amazing they are and how much they mean to you. Don't be afraid to feel. Don't be afraid to make mistakes. Be kind to yourself, mentally and physically. Serve for the Universe. Be in love with yourself. Be in love with life. Be love. Life is a journey. How you live is up to you. 

Love, Hope, Faith.