“If you do not tell the truth about yourself you cannot tell it about other people.”
― Virginia Woolf
― Virginia Woolf
We've often learned to hide what we are truly feeling. It might be in the way of certain things. We learn to hide our feelings because who we are didn't seem to please others, or to be accepted, or to be approved. It usually starts when we are children and most of us don't even remember how we came to do this. And most of the time, we don't face that. The thorn got stuck in you but you forget to take out, because you got used to the pain. But why should we have to hide? Why should we pretend to be who we are not? Why do we have to belong or being accepted? Why do we think that who we are is not good enough?
I don't have the answers for that. Recently, I started feeling all these anxieties and opening of the things that I haven't been feeling in years. "Un-Stressing", that's what my meditation teacher calls it. but if it's Un-Stressing, why am I more stressing out by feeling this way? It's a funny irony. We have to let go whatever we've been piling up before we become new or who we are to begin with. To undone what's been piling up for years and years can take somewhere up to 7-8 years, she said. Wow. It's a lot of work. Being able to be who you are, being able to be honest about what you are feeling, being able to act as you feel, being able to not judge or compare yourself to others, being able to be fully who you are... Only a handful of people are doing that. Many people are aware of the concepts. Many people are willing to practice this. And yet, we still struggle. The fact is this is the journey we all have to go through. Knowing who we are and what our purposes are, that's only the first part of our journey. And only after we know that we are able to serve this Universe. We are here to serve. We are not here to gain.
It's only natural for this day and age to focus on what we can gain, rather than what we can give. More "likes" on your Facebook statues. More followers on Instagram or Twitter. More subscribers for your youtube channels. Why? It gives them a sense of acceptance, approval, confirmations on your existence, right? It makes you feel that you are valuable and important. But those are not your true value. We can gain millions of "like"s or followers, but how many of them do you know personally? I don't deny the medium of these things. Social networks have created the completely new era. People can create what we couldn't do decades ago. People can spread their ideas with others. Journalism and multimedia have completely new way of approaching the world. People with the same interests or mission are able to connect more. I love that. But if you are only doing this for the sake of gaining those "approval", you might want to rethink. Those media is only a tool for you to do what you are really capable of. It does not validate anything.
Start by being honest 5 minutes a day. Maybe you don't feel like eating that piece of bread today. Maybe you don't feel like walking the same route today. Maybe you feel like you wanna grab that book and read. Maybe you want to pick up the phone and call your friend. Maybe you want to give a dollar for a homeless in the corner. Whatever it is, be honest for a little bit. If you don't feel like taking actions, that's fine. Just realize those honest feelings. You might have trained yourself to act certain way at the office and that habit has become an auto-pilot to you. Start realizing what you are doing and how that makes you feel. Start paying attention to the little things. Start being more mindful. It's a small step. But it's a small step that might change the way you thing. Don't underestimate the small things. As they say, we are all energetic being. The small particles of energy and molecules have created us. And if that's the truth, which I believe that is, the little tiny piece that we're taking it for granted, that can change who we are completely. think about that. We are all tiny. We are all the tiny pieces to create this Universe. And everybody's got different part in it. So, be responsible for your part.
Love, Hope, Faith
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