Never apologize for who you are

You can apologize for what you did.

But never apologize for who you are.

----Ash Beckham----

We are who we are for purpose. Ever the things we don't like have a specific purpose. And we feel what we feel and think what we think. And everyone does that. You are not the only one.

I'm not really good at talking about myself. I can write about it, but not talk about it. It's been very difficult. Looking into someone's eyes. Being open and vulnerable to your own feeling. That takes courage. BIG TIME. We live in the world that lots of people don't even know how to talk to each other in person. We text, email, Facebook, Tweet, Instgram.... We forgot how to talk to each other. And to have actual conversation about our feelings. It's easy to avoid talking about what we feel, especially when it's something very personal. It's much easier to build a wall, start pretending that everything is ok and you are fine. It's easier not to talk about it. It's easier to switch subject and be a good "listener". It's easier to just not to talk. And when we pile up and up that feeling and keep building up the wall on top of each other, we become numb to our feelings. We stop feeling and facing the real authentic us. When we get to that point, it's so difficult to breakdown that habit and start listening to your own voice. Does that sound familiar to you!? 

Maybe it was because you wanted to belong. Maybe because you felt a pressure from your parents or from your work environment. Maybe because something was simply too much for you to handle.... The reason can be anything, and most of the time, you won't even realize what the reason is any more. You've buried it way way deep down.  Some people have more access to their own feeling than the others. It doesn't mean that you are any different than them. or their life is easier than yours. We all have something we hide. We all have something that we are afraid to talk about. We all feel something every seconds of the day. It's simple. We are alive in this moment. 

Sometimes when things upset you, you might not wanna feel upset. When people want to make you cry, you swallow that feeling and put a smile on your face. When people talk you down, you might just let yourself feel that way and start beating up yourself. Maybe you're feeling something different than what you think you are suppose to feel or you want to feel. When everybody else getting their breaks and you feel like you are not meant to do what you are doing. There are so many feelings that we face everyday. We don't have to put lids on them. We are all human. And those feelings might be the exact things that drive us forward. It is ok for us to feel the way we feel. Let that feeling sink in to you. And we need to start talking about our feelings. When we feel love, express that. When we feel inspired, do something with it. When you feel sad, it's ok to feel sad. When you feel appreciative, do something to pay it forward. We don't have to judge what we are feeling. It's a part of who we are. It's what makes us who we are. And it's what makes us grow as a better person. 

Love,