to infinity and beyond!

“Do one thing every day that scares you.” 
― Eleanor Roosevelt

Right now, I am being challenged like I've never before. I have to completely be honest with myself, face the reality, accept the current truth and step out f that. And it is truly terrifying. As Marianne Williamson says, "doing something new is not difficult, it's just different. Getting over the resistance is difficult." And even as we speak, I am still in resistance. What can I do? The answer is simple. GET OVER MYSELF!!! It is so easy said than done. Absolutely. I am seeing the major commitment right now. I made goals for myself and yet, I am still doing the same thing. Again, the definition of insane is that doing the same thing over and over again and expecting the different result. Of course! It truly is time for a change. I need to change. I want to change! I WANT TO CHANGE.

So, there. I declared it. The very first key to anything is to decide that that's what you want and owing that. A lot of people might think that knowing why or how you're gonna get to XYZ, that's the first step. I think, deciding what you want it the very first step. If you don't know what you want, you can't really do anything. When you go to the restaurant, you can't order anything till you know what you want! Right? First, you have to decide that. Then you order exactly what you want. You don't ask for a pizza when you want a burger. If you want a cheese pizza, you don't just say I want pizza, you're going to say you want a cheese pizza. So be specific about what you want and ask for it. If you know exactly what you want, you just don't say you want food. That's just too vague. Be clear and know what you want. Then, what do you do after you order? Trust. Sure, they might make mistakes in your order, everybody makes mistakes. But at the end of the day, you do get what you order and we know that. You don't pace around and say, maybe they will bring me a chocolate cake instead, which might be amazing. But you know what you ordered and you know that it's coming. So, why don't we apply this to the other area in our lives? Decide what you want in detail. Know that that's what you want. Ask exactly what you want. Trust that it's gonna be there and let it go. The great thing about this in other area is that you might actually get something better than what you ask for. You might not get how you want, when you want. But it will be that or something better. 

"How" will turn out on its own. Trusting and knowing are the hard part. Then taking action. Live through your commitment. That's something that we are not used to. At least I am not in few areas of my life. Even in the area I thought I was good at, I still am not. I want to make things happen more. I want to go farther. I want my life to expand in love, success and abundance. I want everyone's life to be the same. So I am declaring that the I am changing the way of my life now. I am going to commit. I am going to jump into unknown. I am going to trust that what I want or something better will come to me. I am being bold enough and ask what I want loud and clear. So that I can have empowered life.  Jumping into unknown. Let's do this. 

love,

Life as we know it, can change any time.

“Do you wait for things to happen, or do you make them happen yourself? 

I believe in writing your own story.” 
― Charlotte Eriksson

I want to share a lot nowadays. I think it's because of the transition that I have been going through. It was been an incredible journey and I cannot even describe how grateful I am for every single one of the event and people who came into my life.

I didn't want to be the person who'd talk about myself all the time. I thought it was selfish, self observed, and inconsiderate. It took a lot for me to start talking about myself. Yet, what I have been learning lately, has completely messed up what I believed to be true, and what I thought it was the right way to be. Life is crazy, I'm telling you. It's amazing how things can change. It's amazing how things that I couldn't even possibly imagine could be my passion and my dream. I am one of those people who use "divine", "magical", and "miracle" in normal sentences. It's incredible. Now, I am really starting to show my messiness, insecurities, and every part of me. How was I able to do that? or to even get started? Only because I have a group of incredible people in my life. I know that none of these were possible if it weren't for them. They taught me it's ok to be mess. It's ok to share your weakness and emotion, frustrations and all that. It's ok to rely on people and ask for help. It's ok to just be crazy and start singing and dancing. It's ok to be goofy and have fun in yoga class. It's ok to be me and not expect anything. It's ok to ask questions and let them know that I don't know. It's ok to show up with no make up and cry my eyes off. It's ok to be vulnerable. It's ok to own my power. It is ok to be me and do what makes me happy.

I didn't know that I love people so much. I want to connect with people, talk to people and love people for who they are. I want people to know how beautiful they are both inside and out. I want people to know how magical they are, (there, I said it! "magical"). I want people to know that it's OK to own their power and be who they are. I want people to know that it is their birth right to take care of themselves. I want people to know that the fact that they are here proves that they are worthy. I want people to know that they are here for reasons. I want people to know that they are loved. ahhhh. There are so many things that I want to share with people. And I LOVE LOVE, LOVE people so much. It almost feels like a rebound effect, because before, I wasn't like that. I never shared about me. I didn't wanna be vulnerable. I absolutely couldn't look at people in the eyes. I always deflected. I was afraid that people would judge me. I had no confidence in me. I was good at pretending, or presenting to others that I was. But when it comes down to it, I was horrified to be around people. So now that I am learning all these amazing path and tools, the love for the people is flushing in like I just opened the floodgate.

It's so much easier to be in the light, when I am excited and filled with joy and gratitude. It's so difficult when I'm just feeling nothing like that. I get in to my head a lot more than I should. The other day my friend told me not to, and just let go and talk whatever that comes up in my head. I am so grateful to have friends like that. Because of them I get to swing back from that side. I think it is about learning how to swing back every time when I go down the hill. The same way apply when I am super high in love. Sometimes I just can't get myself together because I am so energetic and excited... feels like a kid with sugar rush. And I learn how to get grounded in times like that. It's about balance. It's about inclusive and duality. I don't always have to categorize or know if that 0 or 1. I can tell people "I don't know". and ask questions and not feel stupid or ashamed.

Life as we know, can change any time if we want to. I wanted to change my life. I wanted to be more me. I wanted to be more free. And right now, I have tons of questions, things that I don't know, things that I get upset over... It is ok to be mess and share that with the world. As a matter of fact, we should, so that we can learn from each other. Be you. Be courageous. Be curious. Be love.

I love you.

Love, Hope, Faith...